the leftovers of my first love

Throbbing chest. The feeling so loud just like a vivid dream. As I’m hit by a stabbing lighting strike. And all just to the memories of the aching broken heart you caused. 

Now full of understanding, yet none at all to those unanswered questions. 

Those desperate times when all I wanted to do was scream at you. WHY.

When I so desperately wanted to know your reasons. When I so desperately wanted you to feel my pain. When the heartaches choked me down causing furious drops down my cheeks. 

So close, yet so far from understanding you, just when I thought I knew you.

When I thought you were my person. When I shared my soul with you. And with a blink of an eye you ripped away a part of me that has forever vanished. 

I miss her so deeply. So full of thrive and love. So naive, yet so confident when it came to love.

When it came to you. You. The one and only I have envisioned a lifetime with. The one I was willing..willing with such willpower

to give it all to. Without  hesitation. 

and now, without you. 

without hesitation. I Am grateful to you for showing my way towards my one true love. the one who's been there all along.

                    me.

Just a disclaimer, this was written ages ago, but I still wanted to share it:) hehe have a good day!!